I almost didn't go through with IVF and we were pretty close to separating. I couldn't get my head around why I had to put my body through so much when there was nothing wrong with my reproductive system. I was angry, ashamed and frustrated, it put a halt on my career, my relationship, I isolated myself from friends that had babies or were pregnant and it consumed my life. Family is the most important thing to me and it wasn't within our reach unless we tried IVF.
I sought local support which helped me realise it was OK to feel sad and I let go of what was preventing us from starting a family. I was able to start IVF without feeling resentful.
We were successful with IVF and I'm now 35 weeks pregnant. I've never been happier and I'm so excited to start a family.
I would describe infertility as a wound that is healing and each month it is ripped open again. Mine is now a scar, something I wear openly to take the time to connect with those struggling with infertility.