Fertility New Zealand walks alongside all people facing fertility challenges.
Infertility is not just a physical matter.
It brings with it profound emotional stress. It is a life crisis, which represents a threat to people’s plans, hopes and dreams. A sense of life ‘being on hold’ is common and making decisions about other aspects of life often becomes extremely difficult. Anger, frustration and resentment are also common responses to infertility. Angry feelings can emerge as a result of loss of control and the loss of choices that seem so readily available to those who conceive without awareness or particular appreciation for their pregnancy.
Build up your health team sooner rather than later which can help you conceive more consciously with greater confidence while knowing you are doing the best you can for your health, and that of your future family. A supportive team, with varying points of view can help ensure that potential problems are identified and treated and nothing gets missed. This is true holistic health care. Ideally your team will be open to communication in all directions. Keep copies of all your test results ideally in chronological order – this includes blood tests, ultrasound reports, and any other tests. Your Doctors, specialists, natural health practitioners should all be able to provide this for you.
Because feeling out of control is such a major factor in the experience of infertility, doing things to increase your sense of control is a useful start. This means recognising the difference between those things you can’t control and those things you can.
Seek information from infertility specialists, counsellors, Fertility NZ, libraries and other online resources (be aware that not all online information is accurate), to inform yourself about the options for you and become more aware of those things you do still have control over.
Question information you are given, search all the available options and talk about them before deciding on a plan of action.
Joining a local group can be immensely helpful in normalising your experience and feeling less isolated at a time when friends and family may be unaware of the situation, or unsure of how to be supportive. Fertility NZ has a network of volunteers who have ‘been there’ and understand what you are going through.
It is inevitable that infertility will impact on your self esteem, relationship, friendships, life plans, career plans and anything else you care to name, so to minimise the negative impact, good preventative self care is crucial.
Self-care may involve you building up your ‘inner resources’ in the areas of nutrition, yoga, mindfulness, regular exercise, and sleep, having fun and being pampered.
The common feeling that life is on hold can be made worse when people put off doing things (taking job promotions, changing careers, buying clothes etc) hoping they will be pregnant next month, next season, next year. Try to live life as fully as possible in the present while you hope the future will bring you your dream. Scheduling a regular time to review your feelings and thinking about your infertility with a partner or key support person seems to be beneficial. This can help prevent infertility dominating all conversation or alternatively not being addressed at all. Also having someone outside your relationship with whom you can fully share (without being judged) the emotions involved is useful. These people are hard to find - choose carefully!
It is well documented that writing or drawing about painful experiences is also often therapeutic. Writing a personal journal, or painting/drawing may be a form of release for you to try, during tense and stressful times.
The rollercoaster of infertility
It may have come as an initial surprise to you on your fertility journey that there can be extreme highs – or moments of hope and optimism; which can quite quickly swing to feelings of deep sadness, despair, or even depression. This is often tied into treatment cycles or even your monthly period. Events in your personal life – such as news of a friend or family member’s pregnancy, can also be a very tough part of dealing with what people often describe as the rollercoaster of emotions. Infertility is perhaps one of life’s hardest tests of resilience. In order to be able to bounce back and keep trying to conceive for as long as you feel is right for you to do so, it’s important to learn about and practice self-care. This means finding the things that help you to feel looked after both physically and emotionally so that the highs and lows of the roller coaster will be more manageable.